Xander is 5.5 and Wesley is 3.5. I can't believe my babies will be 6 and 4 this coming July. We have a beautiful niece from my brother Mike and his wife Kristen. She comes to play once in a while and we really enjoy her. It's weird not having another baby in the home...but you can't really have control over your family or it's size. I have learned over the last few years that you can't just choose to have a baby and then you'll magically have one. You can't even decide if you want a boy or a girl. I'm not sure how our families our chosen. I'm sure it has something to do with Premortal existence. I just know that things don't always work out as planned. I have had many times where I have been so frustrated and lost faith and hope. Then I wake myself up and realize that I need to just trust my Heavenly Father and know that he has some kind of plan for me. It hasn't made the journey any less easier, but it has made me stronger. I know you can't just have whatever you what when you want it. It's not a super public thing, but I'll post it here that we are applying for adoption. We went to an orientation and they said that even if we do everything right, that we only have a 33% of even getting a child to bring home. I wish we could add onto our family. I'm trying to be more grateful for what I have and also have a better attitude. It's hard, but I'm doing my best.
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It is great that you want more kids, I am overwhelmed and not very good at having three. You are incredible, thanks for the message and thoughts you shared. All we can do is try, even if we don't succeed the way we imagine. Your boys are so cute and I hope that you are granted the desires of you heart!
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