I have heard that the transition from 1 child to 2 is not too bad and I have to agree. It has its challenges but it has not been a total nightmare. If you had asked me 5 years ago where I would be right now, I'm not sure I could have imagined being a mother of two. Life is crazy with children but I'm getting used to it. The hardest challenges come when I need to take care of something and I have to find a sitter to do it. I do have some help from family and friends. I just wish I had an automatic nanny to be there every time I need a break or to take care of things.
I am a slight control freak and I need to have a routine to my days. Luckily I have found a way to establish a slight one so far. I am feeling almost back to normal since Wesley was born so I'm going right back into being as active as I can be. I have been taking morning walks with both kids in the double stroller, plus I go to the gym twice a week now. Wesley's feedings have taken on a schedule of sorts, so I try to plan around them. Sometimes the house gets cleaned and dinner gets made. I feel bad for Xander. He really requires a lot of attention and he really wants to be played with. He will play on his own but he gets bored doing that all day. Wesley is only 3 weeks old, so I'm still waiting for him to be a little older before I start taking him out more. I'm slowly figuring out how to do things. I just wish I could give Xander more of my time.
I can't wait to get Wesley on a regular bedtime so that Jerry and I can get a little evening break to ourselves. I love having Xander's bedtime at 7:30pm and it has been that way since he was a baby. I hope Wesley will fit into that schedule soon. I also can't wait to get out more. I like spending time at home, but I get restless. I think I'm doing the best I can for a person who has never truly been a "kid" person. As long as I don't leave any mental scars for my children and they survive their childhood I can die happy. Being a mom is crazy!
