Merry Christmas!

Sorry, not an original post title! It took me a couple weeks, but I am finally feeling the Christmas spirit. This is my first Christmas in 4 years that I don't have to work! It will be fun to wake up Christmas morning with my family and get to spend all day with them. In fact the last Christmas I had off was in 2003. Jerry and I had just barely gotten engaged and he got me a gorgeous ring as my Christmas present. We spent Christmas in Bear Lake where we got hit with a huge snow storm. Since then we have spent a little time in Bear Lake every December to celebrate Christmas. This will be the first Christmas we are spending at home and we have a little baby. Xander is already 5 months old. We aren't going to wrap him any presents, but I think we are going to go out and buy him some fun 6+ month toys to keep him entertained as he gets older. I wish we didn't have to do the whole Santa thing, but I guess it is a part of childhood. It is just kind of lame lying to your kid until one year they realize you have been making this whole Santa thing up. Sorry if I sound like a grinch about Santa but as I get older I want to celebrate the birth of Jesus more then thinking about the commercialization out there. When I listen to Christmas music, I prefer the traditional music rather then songs about Rudolph or Santa. All I wish for everyone out there this year is to have a Merry Christmas spending lots of time with your family and loved ones. Just be safe and have fun and remember the true meaning of this time of year.

I just wanted to post pictures earlier of Xander last year and then Xander this year. This ultrasound was done on 12/18/07. You can't see much, but the little circle is his heart beating. Time definitely flies!

It's almost Christmas!

I have been so busy it's been hard to go online and update my blog. Being a working mom is tough but things are going well. We finally put Xander in daycare and he seems to be doing well. I guess he is too young to have separation anxiety. Hopefully he wont have that problem since he has to get used to being in daycare every other week. I just got done spending a week taking care of him. I don't mind working though since sometimes I just need baby breaks, and I like working in my profession and helping people.
It is just weird to reflect on last December. I found out I was pregnant on 12/10/07. I was late but didn't think I was pregnant since I felt just fine. Jerry told me to take a test but I wanted to be stubborn about it. Finally at 3am on 12/10 I woke up from a dream where I had taken a test and it was positive. I was determined to prove my dream wrong so I stumbled out of bed and went to the bathroom to take a pregnancy test. I took it and a faint second line showed up! I was in shock. Jerry and I had been trying to get pregnant but I thought it would take a few months. Later that day I had to buy more pregnancy tests and they were positive too. I was more scared then anything.
It is overwhelming to know that you are responsible for this little life. You have to be a good example and teach your child to grow up happy and teach them what is right. Alexander is already 5 months old and seems to be doing alright so far. He smiles and laughs so hopefully I am being a good mom. I honestly don't feel like I could do this without Jerry. There are a lot of times where I just don't know what to do and he is there to take the baby and help me out. He is such a good dad and he actually wants to and loves to take care of Xander. I know a lot of dads out there who leave most the work for the mom. I'm so glad Jerry doesn't leave me hanging. Motherhood has been a challenge for me so far. I do love my little guy and I'm glad he gives me a little smile here and there. (Grr I wanted to add some pictures, but for some reason it wont let me. I'll try to post again later.)