My weight loss journey

I was going to wait and write this post when I finally reached my weight loss goal, but I'll just post it now since I'm so close!  I know some people have a whole blog dedicated to weight loss, but I'm just going to post a little about it on my family blog since I don't want to make a whole blog just about losing weight.

 I'll start with a little background.  When I was younger and growing up I always felt big and awkward.  I grew faster then everybody else my age when I was in elementary school.  Kids would tease me and say that I got held back, or I would get called names, like Stork legs.  By the time I slowed down and people caught up to me I reached a height of 5ft 7in.  I like being a taller female, in fact I wish was even a couple inches taller!  I have fought with my weight for most of my life too.  I was overweight for a few years as a teenager.  One day I weighed myself and was really unhappy with what I saw.  From that moment on I was determined to get physically active and stay that way for the rest of my life, and I have to this day.  Once I started exercising the weight just came off and I was to a normal weight in just a couple months.  Despite being a normal weight I still felt bad.  A lot of my friends were just skinny and I was jealous.  I stayed at a healthy weight until I got married.  I blame myself, but I also blame my weight gain post wedding on the birth control pills I was taking.  I put on weight and I could not get it off no matter how much I exercised.  Before getting pregnant I was at my highest weight and just thought that was where I would be stuck. I had two kids in 3 years and I did lose the pregnancy weight within the first few months for both my kids.
  About a month after having Wesley I discovered an app on my new smart phone that would let me keep track of everything I was eating.  It was through a program called Spark People.  I started using the food journal for a couple months but never got totally serious about that or the program.  I was also nursing my baby and I know you don't want to cut out too much food if you want to make that work.  Finally when 2011 rolled around I was getting more frustrated about my weight.  I decided to read The Spark.  It is a book from the SparkPeople.com program.  I reached my aha moment while reading the book.  I had to realize a couple things.  The most important one, and my main motivator is to tell myself that I am worth it and I deserve to be at the best health I can possibly be.  The second realization was that diets really don't work, eating better works!  I do not believe in diets.  I honestly never tried a diet in my life because I knew I wouldn't be able to stick with it.  Now I have found a program I can stick with.  I finally believe I can do this and I can get to a healthy weight and stay there as long as I stay diligent.  I learned that exercise alone is not going to help lose weight.  If I exercise a lot, then go home and eat bad, I'm going to keep the weight on.  I might have muscle, but it will be hiding under fat!
   I am doing a few things to help me lose weight.  I set new goals for myself all the time and make them simple enough to follow through.  I make small changes to my diet that I can follow to eat healthier.  My biggest challenge in the beginning was getting my full servings of fruits and veggies everyday, and right now I do get at least 5 or more on most days.  I don't deny myself anything.  If I want my chocolate, my cookies or my ice cream I have them.  I just only have one portion size though and I make sure it fits in my daily calorie range.  I workout just about every single day and I love it.  I have always loved working out.  My motivating goal is to get at least 10 minutes everyday and I do!  10 minutes is a piece of cake for anyone to follow.  I am challenging myself in many ways with exercise.  I try to run at least 5 miles or more every single week.  I strength train 2-3 times a week.  I do aerobics classes that I enjoy and I always look forward to them.  I am not punishing or depriving myself in any way.  I am rarely ever hungry because when I do eat, I make sure the calories are meaningful instead of empty.  If you get enough protein and fiber you will not be hungry until your next meal or snack.  The most important thing is that I am doing something for myself that I can live with my whole life.  I really enjoy what I am doing.
  I am so close to my goal..As of this morning I am 2lbs away from being in the healthy weight category!  I am 7lbs from my goal, which was to weigh what I did in high school.  After I hit my goal I"m going to keep going, but I will only lose enough weight that it is healthy for me.  After all is said and done, I will focus on maintenance and I know I can always make goals to get fitter and healthier.  There is never an end to getting fitter, you can always do more!  The beginning of June was when I finally figured things out and really started the Spark People program.  Since June I have dropped about 28lbs!  If I can lose weight with this program anyone can!  It is free and all they do is give you the tools, knowledge and support you need to get healthier.  If anyone needs a workout buddy I would be more than happy to help.

Birthday month!

The Cars cake had black frosting!

Back when I found out I would be having another July baby I thought it would be cool having my two kids share a birthday month. Now I'm thinking that it's just a little bit stressful, but we made it through. It was fun but I need a break from birthdays!

Xander was supposed to have his party on July 9th, a few days before his real one. However he got sick the night before with croup right in the middle of summer! Luckily I was able to reschedule for his actual birthday on the 13th. We just went to Boondocks and ate lots of pizza and cake. I can't believe it's already been 3 years since we brought home a late pre-term 5lb baby. He is now healthy, happy and well over 30lbs. My kids both have their yearly checkups next week and I'll have to post some stats if I can.

The final party was for baby Wesley on the 22nd. He is supposedly a toddler now but he is so tiny and sweet that he still seems very much like a baby to me. He still weighs close to what he did at 6 months. I don't know why he is so much smaller than his brother but he is still very healthy. I was hoping he would be walking by his 1st birthday, but he's not there yet. He is super close though. He walks with his toys and his newest trick is standing up on his own in the middle of the room. He just stands up and doesn't know what to do after that. He'll be walking soon enough, I'm sure it will be in the next couple weeks.

We had a Dino party for Wesley at our house. We invited close friends and family and ate lots of food. I wanted a barbecue but that's a little hard with no grill. We just ordered sandwiches instead. Both kids are spoiled now. If I ever have time I'm going to donate some old toys and clothes that my kids don't need or use. Wesley should be able to use a lot of Xander's old clothes, but with him being smaller, I have been having to buy him new outfits to fit the summer season. Wesley only wears 12 month size right now. Xander can even fit in clothes he wore a year ago. We built up a lot of clothes and toys in just 3 years!

I always like to include stats so here they are:

Wesley 12 months: 19.2lbs 29.5 inches

Xander 36 months: 34.6lbs 38inches

They are growing like crazy!

Just some reminiscing

Where was I one year ago? I believe I was about 37 weeks pregnant, swollen and just begging my baby to come out! His big brother made his debut 3 weeks early,so why shouldn't the second baby do the same? This baby had other plans, he wanted to stay close to his mama for a little while longer. He ended up coming on July 22nd at 8:26pm, one day before he was due. He has filled our home with joy and even true peace at times. It brings tears to my eyes that it has already been a year with this sweet little guy. I was completely in love with him before we even left the hospital and have been smitten ever since. It's so crazy how things change. It's weird to me that I wasn't always a mom, and that I wasn't always a mother of two. It feels like these two kids have been a part of my life forever. Maybe they have in some way. If we have a third child, I'm sure I will feel like they have always been here too.

These kids change so much in just a short time. My older child, Alexander has had issues with his ears and sinuses since birth. His hearing does work, but all the fluid build up helped prevent him from hearing properly. He has been speech delayed and barely communicating a year ago. Now he jabbers to me in small sentences all day and repeats everything he hears. He is a smart kid too. None of that childproofing stuff works on him. He is imaginative, and does pretend play all the time. He is my emotional child as well. He can go from being really whiny, to super happy. He is rough and likes to wrestle. I know that is a "boy thing" but he seems to get that from me as well because I like to do those things. I'm sure he will catch up with other kids and I hope he goes where he wants to go in life. I look forward to having a blast with him, maybe teaching him some things I love and doing them with him.

My sweet baby Wesley is my cuddler and a total mommy's boy at least for now. When he was born I was shocked in the hospital that he almost never cried. He just laid there and slept peacefully. When he was awake he would just look around and take everything in. He is less emotional than his brother, just more laid-back. He does like to smile and laugh and play. He doesn't complain too much. He is doing great with his milestones. He is a champion crawler and will be walking very soon. I was hoping it would be by his first birthday, but it might not be for another little while. Xander didn't master walking until he was 14 months. I can't believe it has already been a year. 2 years ago I was getting ready to celebrate Xander's 1st birthday.

I feel blessed to have these sweet kids. It is tough at times but I know I wouldn't want to live my life without these two people in it and I have no regrets in becoming a mommy. Happy birthday to my two sweet children, Xander (3) July13th and Wesley (1) July 22nd.

Xander loves music

I never share videos on here so I thought I would post some. I intend to make my kids take piano lessons someday.

My Friday the 13th morning

Warning: If you are eating something, or just can't stand stories about bodily functions..then do not continue.

Xander is almost 3 years old and in his short life so far has gotten himself into plenty of messes. The situation that happened to him and me this morning has to be at the top of the list. I can't think of too many other disgusting situations than the one that happened this morning! I was downstairs taking care of Wesley when I started hearing noises from Xander's room. I knew he was awake and probably just running around his room playing until I could go get him. I opened the door to his room and was greeted by a terrible smell. I thought he just had a messy diaper and I could change it and move on with the day. I put him on the changing table and started to pull off his pajama bottoms. They were stuck to him...and they were stuck with poo. I was pretty horrified. Not only was his diaper completely full but he one leg and both feet were covered! I tried to wipe it off, but the only thing I really could do was throw Xander in the tub. Wesley is just crawling around on the floor this whole time. The only place I could put him to get him out of the way is his new playpen. He hates that thing with a passion but I wanted him to not fall down the stairs or crawl in Xander's mess. I put him in his playpen and he clung to the side screaming his head off. So I'm dealing with poo everywhere, a messy toddler and a screaming baby. I took off the bedding on Xander's bed and on my way out stepped in some poo. I cleaned everything the best I could but I wish I would have paid more attention to how my mom cleaned. Maybe she can offer me some advice.

We are working on potty training Xander but I don't think he is ready yet. Even if he is trained I know these things can still happen. I work with blood and all kinds of human body fluids for a living, but this situation was far more disgusting than anything I have dealt with in the lab. At least most everything is contained in a tube and I get to wear a lab coat and gloves. I think what I needed in this situation was gloves and a biohazard can. I'm sure there are more fun messes like this coming my way, I do have two young kids right now. It's just interesting that it had to happen on Friday the 13th.

13 is usually a lucky number for my family. My parents were married 12/13/80. Jerry and I were married 3/13/04. Xander was born 7/13/08. I found out I was pregnant with baby #2 on 11/13/09 which was a Friday the 13th as well. I am optimistic that the rest of the day will go better. Maybe something awesome will happen later today, it is date night for Jerry and me.

Disneyland!

We flew out to Disneyland on Tuesday the 26th of April. There were a few firsts for us and our kids. It was the first plane ride for either of our kids, unless you count that I flew when I was pregnant with Xander. It was Jerry and my first plane ride dealing with very young kids. It went alright, not any worse then I would expect with a 9 month old and a 2 year old. I tried to keep Wesley asleep for most of the plane ride. The best thing for Xander was letting him watch cartoons and have snacks. That is what I would recommend to any parent traveling with a toddler.

We didn't go to Disneyland our first or even second day. We spent our 2nd day in the California adventure park. I think my favorite ride was the Hollywood tower. I didn't even know what to expect when I first rode it. It is one of those rides that drops you. I love those rides. I love the Rocket at Lagoon, which has a similar principal. My brother Michael (aka Jose) and his girlfriend Kristen came along to help us out a little. I would not have gone on this trip without help. They watched the kids a few times so we could go on rides. On our third day we spent most of the day in Disneyland. It was also my brother's birthday so we ate out at Buca di Beppo. That is a very interesting Italian restaurant. On our last day we went in between both parks and tried to go to anything we hadn't experienced yet. We flew back from sunny California to cold and snowy Utah. I can't wait for it to actually be warm here in Utah!

This trip was a little tough for baby Wesley. I think it was just overwhelming and strange. He was the biggest mommy's boy. He just wanted me to hold him all day everyday. I liked it, but it makes it hard to do anything! Right now it seems like Xander is a daddy's boy (always has been) and Wesley wants his mommy more.

Wesley turned 9 months old right before our trip. I can't believe it has been that long. I think I have some birthday planning to do very soon. He crawls and can pull himself to standing. He is super active. I took him to his checkup today and he lost instead of gained weight. His doctor was a little concerned so we had his blood drawn for some tests . I hope he is doing okay. He was really sick in March and lost weight then. I think he is having a hard time gaining it back because he is so active. He was 17lbs 5oz (down from 18lbs 2oz at 6months) and about 28inches tall. It is weird having a smaller baby since big brother was so chubby at the same age. Xander was 21lbs and I never worried about him starving. With Wesley, I am a little worried, but I hope it is normal. Worrying is just a part of being a parent!

Easter

I keep wanting to post, but I'm always so busy. I guess I haven't even posted since our wedding anniversary. These kids keep me so busy. It's a crazy life, but it's always amazing to watch how Xander and Wesley learn and grow. Wesley started army crawling around 7 months. He is kind of stuck on that right now, but he will get up on hands and knees and do a real crawl. He just turned 9 months old. He is pulling himself up on everything, he feeds himself finger food and he is the cutest babbler. I forgot how cute baby talk is. Wesley is just an adorable baby who is into everything now.

Xander is learning new words and will communicate with us, most the time. Sometimes he just gets cranky and will just whine when he wants something. I just hope he catches up with kids his age. It's hard worry about him all the time and hoping he will be able to talk and learn normally. He is a funny guy and he loves his baby brother. They are already buddies. Sometimes they will just giggle at each other while I am driving them somewhere. I hope they don't fight too much as they grow older.

For Easter, I was able to get work off Saturday and we took the kids to the grocery store. Smiths was having an Easter party, so I decided to check that out. Last year we took Xander to a hunt at the park. We were a few minutes late to that, and it was already over. At Smith's they just laid out candy in the aisles and separated the different age groups. Xander did really well and got way more candy then a 2 year old needs!

We are going to to pack up our two kids and fly out to Disneyland on Tuesday. I am nervous to travel with two kids. I know it will be tough, but I hope we have a fun time too. I need a vacation. Although my favorite vacation ever is going on a cruise. I hope to do that again soon. My next post will probably be about our trip and if we survived or not.